Saturday, April 29, 2006

My place in this world

My life is burning
your looks are deceiving
like the life i live,
isn't what im expecting
and im still looking for
my place in this world

Standing by the river
flowing though the days and nights
drowing all the pages
burning, cause my life,
its harder than it seems
im roaming through my time
searching for my place in this world

I need your help
im just another hopeless hero
for the worlds romantic glory
to be kicked around
struck down and never make a sound
so many lives,
maybe one more is,
maybe its too many
im still looking for the reason
still searching for my place in this world

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Holy shit college sucks,

we throw bouncy balls and mouse mats out the window, dont do work, and play with poles

just like people should do at college8-)

does anyone actually read these blogs? lol

Maybe i should start to write a story

Monday, April 17, 2006

yep, i like to write songs

So, i like to write poem song type things.....as you may have guessed

Two for one on feelings

This soul
Isnt' the peice of life
that you worshipped
its something that even i dont understand

the life thats feeding the needey
and destroying the weathing
feeling no remorse
yet feeling guilty for it all
the soul thats confused
in all thats abused
Curse under your breath,
say i love you out loud
breath a sigh of relief
when im rid of this god forsaken shroud

Friday, April 14, 2006

Its somethin i cant get my head around

I saw a rainbow today
i pictured your love
in multiple colours
from the salt seas of the East
to the raging deserts from the South
i wished it was you
brightening up my lonely skies
bringing me the lows
and the highs
lighting up my feelings
like the sun lights up our lives

I miss you

Hold on to something that you think is real
you will suddenly feel that you aint gunna heal
it all happens again
like your lifes all pretend
You wished it would end
im here for you now
dont you feel down any more
im here and im yours
thats for sure

Here i am
hold on to me i'ts real
with me your life it will heal
it will happen again
i swear this isnt pretend

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Like i thaught, you are the one

This diary
It aint big enough for you
the feelings are too strong
they burn through the pages
like god himself has come unstrung

Im sure that
We'll get through
I know that
You'l see it
I love you
You know that

My perfect life
Must end sometime
I just hope that
It is with you
I wish that
you could see
Your my one and
Your my only

Im sure that
We'll get through
I know that
You'l see it
I love you
You know that

Ill be your hero
Ill be your Zero
But you must know that
Ill be your life, i'll love you

Im sure that
We'll get through
I know that
You'l see it
I love you
You know that

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

I Think I'm Over You

You make me feel warm
Like your looks they once did,
These feelings that I have,
They go straight to my head,
I know that you hate me,
And you wished I were dead,
I know there were things,
That I shouldnt'a said,
I know that your gone,
And your never coming back,
The pain's like rain it weighs me down
So down I'm underground
But please understand,

I feel lost and confused,
I know what you're thinking,
Cause I know you feel used,

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, (I didn't mean it)
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, (No way)
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, (Will you let me say)

I think I'm over you,
I'm sure I'm not,
I Know I'm still in love with you.

Why must you kill me?
like the suns ferocious heat
I know that your thinking
"Why would he do this"
I was so scared I'll miss
It happened all in a flash,
I wish it didnt but it had to last
Don't mis-understand me
I knew you were the key
But she gave me something
The burn's a Third Degree
But please understand,

I feel lost and confused,
I know what you're thinking,
Cause I know you feel used,

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, (I didn't mean it)
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, (no way)
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, (but Please Let me say)

I think I'm over you,
I'm sure I'm not,
I Know I'm still in love with you.

It's not what you wanted (I Wanted)
I know (you know)
But I couldnt help it (You couldnt)
She was just another person in the line (in the line)

I think I'm over you,
I'm sure I'm not,
I Know I'm still in love with you.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Songs

:Running man:
I heard her crying alone one night,
Like an angel had fell from great height,
Tears of Hurt run down cut cheeks
Route 66 upon her

I can't feel, I can't breathe,
I can't hear and i can't touch,
My senses overload me, im out of time,
For me and my Personal Crime,

You need to see,
And you need to be,
there for her in,
her time of need,

I can't feel, I can't breathe,
I can't hear and i can't touch,
My senses overload me, im out of time,
For me and my Personal Crime,

:Love:
It should be me
Not him
Life spinning round
The love life wheel rim

You made me special
And for those few months
life was the best
but because of you
my pain has no rest

is what you've done too much too take?
drown myself im my own blood lake
we had it all
you were the one
all i had to do was make that one call

You were mine
but now you're not
living life like you forgot
it's not my fault i swear it isn't
take my life with this colt

I love you, its about time i told you that

:Hold me in your arms tonight:
This truck here carries my heart
its yours, since you asked me be mine
i love you, dont you see that?
will it crash? like it always does?
or will you drive it?
drive it to my heart

Say it isn't so, you are the one
i cant love anyone else but you
make me whole and you gave to me
the feeling that i want
but now i miss you
and you aren't alone

theres no peace in my heart
no sleep in my soul
you are the one
you make me whole

:love filled kiss:
That name i remember was Sarah Louise
she had bright green eyes and
her hair was perfectly sweet

She lived in san jose with
her younger daughter Kaye
we met at city hall
at the lush brickwall

We watched the sabrecats
beat those young guns the wild knats
we wore ourselves some sabrecat hats
but through all of this
all i wanted was a love filled kiss

:letters of blood:
Hey dear friend
How is your life now?
last time i saw you, you were going through a hell hole,
full of greed and selfishness,
did you stop to think? thats not what you need,

Yeah, i guess so, i guess im sorry,
but i must say,
im glad things are better?
as you can see, im writing you this letter

:This song is for you, dear friend:
The rain runs down my window
as the pain flows from my veins
i see you walk past my door,
but you dont even take a look
so now im bleeding out
all over my, all over my
all over my bedroom floor

The glass seperates me from you
like it has before
although this time its different
cause the pain that i once felt
has soaked my fucking floor

the street lights flicker on
as day turns to night
the light that was once in me
is now fading black
the pain that once imprisoned me
is never coming back
its left me feeling fine
cause now you all know,
im happy now im dying

:Shivering hearts sing shaken lullabyes:
I feel cold where you left me
Shivering hearts sing shaken lullabyes
theres no need for sadness
this is what you wanted

These rain drops
they hint of you
but this monsoon
drowns me in you

Im drowning, drowning in the fear of dying
i know that you can save me
but only if you wanted

:the one for you:
Everybodys hunting for that someone
someone to be with hand in hand
they scour the air the sea and the land
only to find that theyre on theyre own
(unfinished)

:short love:
Touch me and feel me
Kiss me aind reel me in
im yours for the catch
but i dont think ill match ya
cause your very lovely i just wanna hug thee (HEEHEE)
aint no one gone stop from that

:Blood stained Breath:
I know we can work this
this shits getting out of control
like god when hes angry
this shits getting nasty,
you think your the best
but theres no-one more loved than you

my mind opens up like the blinds on a window
to the world as we see it
theres people who die, and people who live for it
you aint really that special, but i know that i love you
and i know that i always will

:tales of heartbreak:
You told me that you loved me
but i dont think you did
you said to me you'd stay
if ever things went wrong
now all that reminds me of you
is only this damn song
(unfinished)